Ahhhh the college search, you are terrifying and daunting, constantly reminding me that I will not be attending one of the east coast Catholic Schools, because I fail at math and science and they are eating away at my GPA. But I always have the option of Loyola if I wish to pack my bags go to Chicago to be with my fellow Catholics and live in such an environment. But Chicago? No. But, good news! The more I look for a college that's "the best fit for me" the more I stumble onto dear Sarah Lawrence. The more I stumble, the more I love. Huzzah for artsy fartsy nonsense, god forbid that a student learns about what they want to learn, that would just be anarchy. Also, I COULD GO TO OXFORD, through Sarah Lawrence, OH MAN!!!!! Yes NYU, I still love you, and of course you are not out of my mind Notre Dame, but step aside, there's a new girl in town, and you can read her name has Lawrence, Sarah
Ah yes, poetry. That silly recitation is coming up, and I want to do "Heart, we will forget him" by EMily Dickinson, but it's only 9 lines (damn). Some other Dickinson I'm sure will do, but not like that one (sigh).
EART, we will forget him! - You and I, to-night!
- You may forget the warmth he gave,
- I will forget the light.
- When you have done, pray tell me,
- That I my thoughts may dim;
- Haste! lest while you're lagging,
- I may remember him!
but alas, it is too short.
UGH I'm writing this right now to make it seem as if I am working on the gayest Latin essay ever about Cicero and one of his speach. Mr. Kaiser didn't even explain the assignment. He told us that he needed to write about what Cicero said and what he meant, AN ESSAY about it. GAY!!!!! So here I sit listening to OAR, because I feel reminiscent of my early musical experiences, and I've decided that I WANT TO GO BURNING MAN! (and mish, you're coming with me) I want to go burning man, and I want to go Banaroo and I just want to be the hippy that I've aspiring to be lately. FREE LOVE MAN "Let's take all this blood and turn into love on the black rock" For those of our veiwers who are unaware, Black Rock is where Burning Man takes place. Google it because I don't feel like explaining it.
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- Location:Language Lab
- Mood:
aggravated - Music:OAR
Let it be known that if there is a certain Victoria John reading this I would like her to contact me regarding her easter plans, for they might be coinciding with my own.
You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is
And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are
Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging
And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes
Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.
I've just decided how much I love this song, Its a Beautiful Mess by Jason Mraz and I LOVE it
You confuse me to no end
Make up your mind
I'm sorry
You know you want this, not that
So, I has teh boredom, and teh lonelies. My cat has teh restless, and when those things all happen at the same time, the result is this.
- Location:kitchen
- Mood:
restless
I HATES THIS PAPER SO MUCH!! I don't understand the reason why thye had to make it the final, like WTF. Something so high up on the ridiculous scale should not have the weight upon our grade that this will. I hate you Mr Smith, only not because you love me and give me good grades and that mkaes me happy. KEEP IT UP

This is my halloween costume and I'm very excited because its actually based off of an Amy Brown drawing which is just MAGICAL and the reason I bought it of course I shall post pictures of me wearing it when it has arrived.
This is not a poem
A story of emotional rides
Merely the tip of the iceberg
undescribable
This is not a poem
This is an unending stream of words
Unconnected unfiltered
Fuck
Words like blood
The impatience of emotion cripples
Creativity
Locked into the left hemisphere of life
Numbers logic
Numbers
116
131
Lacking a hand to hold
Lost in the dark
This is not a poem
Poems take skill and thought
A talent for words and comprehension
All lost and hiding from desire
Pure throbbing
A desired turned love
Unreturned
Hatred
This is not a poem
This is nothing
Nothing
I would do anything to make your suffering go away, and I'm beyond sorry. Just please do what I asked, please, not for her I understand but for me??
LISTEN TO ME!! When I say don't say those things, you are going to get hurt, completely and seriously HURT! They will HURT you.
- Mood:
worried - Music:sad classical music
Breathing deeply at the gate
Each respirating gasp pulls in adrenaline
Pure
Determines
Color-enhancing power
Power to thow oneself inot chaotic piles
The bell of action sounds
Thoughs are released
Pounding with horses speed across the ground
Galloping against eachother
Panning the outside of my mind
Through memories and knowledge
pushing past images burned far beneath the skull
Disregarding
Crash
The collision with this wall of the memory brings a halt
Without delay your smoothly perfect face is everywhere
entangled brown curls
ensnare me
The memory of that provides bedding for my mind
Visions of your height gives my muscles strength
you're a comfort, but
Nonexistant
it holds my thoughts entrapped
nothing
nothing but you
free me?
as you can tell by the suckiness of this poem I am currently preoccupied and hating it
- Music:whatever I can find on the interwebs
